I might just leave everything behind me

and run to a place where no one knows who i am

I am waiting for that day to come

I know it will come

And I know the place that I will go

Don's ask me why

I just somehow feel like doing it

I am going to work hard for this two years

To achive my dream, My target

To survive in a new environment

p/s: this is not a suicide note

相信了

也接受了

原来工作真的不容易

原来读书考试其实是一件幸福的事

上班族每一天都活在压力中

而生为学生的我

却只有在考试前

才感到压力

踏出社会后

认清了这件事

这是一个很好的经验

我会好好利用剩下的两个月

好好学习

好好与同事们相处

更重要的事

回到校园后

我会更加珍惜读书的时光

现在的我

真得很想好好的休息

真的好累

不论是身心

或是心理 

心里清楚地明白

自己再也撑不了多久了

感觉

快要崩溃了

害怕会有一天

在他人面前

会突然发脾气

害怕有一天

再也控制不了自己的情绪

而破口大骂

虽然知道不应如此

却再也不想压抑

想让身边的人知道

我也有发怒的时候

人的忍耐力是有限的

不想一直隐藏自己的情绪

不想一直带着面具

不想再顾虑任何人

能吗

1. I am here on earth just a little while

2. For we were born but yesterday, our days on earth are as transient as a shadow.

3. We fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

4. The things we see now are here today, but gone tomorrow; the things we cant see now will last forever.

5. When life gets tough, when I am overwhelmed with doubt, or when I wonder if living for Christ is worth the effort, I must remember that I am not home yet. At death, i wont leave home---I will go home.

6. In God's eyes, the greatest heroes of faith are not those who achieve prosperity, success and power in life. But those treat life as temporary assignment, and serve faithfully, expecting their promise reward in eternity.

Why did i place so much importance on things that were so temporary?

What was i thinking?

Why did i waste so much time, energy and concern on what wasnt going to last long?

The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren

1. Life is a test, life is a trust and life is a temporary assignment

2. Character is both developed and revealed by tests, all of life is a test.

3. I will be tested by major changes, delayed promises, impossible problems, unanswered prayers, undeserved criticism and evem senseless tragedies.

4. Every day is an important day, every second is a growh opportunity to deepen my character.

5. God will never allows the tests I face to be greater than the grace he gives me to handle them.

6. Everything I enjoy is to be treated as a trust that God has placed in my hands.

7. The more God gives me, the more responsible he expects me to be.

The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren

是时间改变了我
是经验打开了我的眼
渐渐的
学会了冷眼旁观
仿佛自己已不属于这个世界
渐渐的
不想再理会身边的事
不想去插手他人的事
只要静静地做好自己的本分
关心应该关心的人
对那些真心对待自己的人好
这就够了
原谅我的无情
别怪我残忍
这只是我自我保护的意识
我只想保护自己
不让任何人伤害
不让任何人影响我
更不让任何人
有机会左右我的心情

进一步或 退一步 结局一样是未知数
被羡慕也 被忌妒 当我的手被你握住
想起当初如何被守护 嚐尽了甜头也吃过了苦
翻着回忆不断地阅读 我的付出如此投入

我告诉自己无论如何不许哭
被你放弃不是最痛的输
也许对你温柔拥抱有贪图
我应该满足 我非常满足

我告诉自己无论如何不许哭
因为至少我们曾经被祝福
如果留下伤口要微笑着康復
我应该满足 我非常满足

想起当初如何被守护 嚐尽了甜头也吃过了苦
翻着回忆不断地阅读 我的付出如此投入

我告诉自己无论如何不许哭
被你放弃不是最痛的输
也许对你温柔拥抱有贪图
我已准备 觉悟

我告诉自己无论如何不许哭
因为至少我们曾经被祝福
如果留下伤口要微笑着康復
我应该满足 我非常满足

歌曲： 不许哭
歌手: 云镁鑫

i had done something stupid again

i have lost my tempered recently

i have become very impatient and easily get annoyed and irritated by people around me

i dun trust people anymore

Lord

please help me

help me to forgive people who hurts me

like how lord u had forgiven me

In jesus name we pray

Amen

报告终于赶完了

看着自己辛辛苦苦做的报告

厚厚的

感到有点儿心满意足

无论成绩如何

它，是我的心血

我引它为傲

哈哈

 

有时候

我真的觉得很累

很多东西

你们心里都已有一个结果

一个答案

无论我如何去解释

无论你们如何的口口声声说相信我

但，其实你们根本就不信

再解释下去

也只会浪费我的力气

你们也可能会说解释等于掩饰

我只希望

当你们开玩笑时

请不要太过分

请适可而止

不然

被伤害的

会是你身边的人